Our Next Vice-President

I think I am in love.

Haven't Felt Like Blogging

My blogging has been a little limited lately and basically because I just don't feel like it. August has been a challenging month. I hoping to be back into a routine soon.

Happy Birthday To Me

Today I am 42 and I feel it, not physically but emotionally. Now, I do have a few more aches and pains than I did 10 years ago but I think I am overall in better shape. But, emotionally and mentally I feel the oldest I have ever felt. I am really hopefully that I will get through this time period soon.

Worry

I am a professional worrier. I have been doing it as long as I can remember and even had an ulcer by the time I was 16. Even if there isn't anything to worry about, I then worry about that. I find myself actually looking for things to worry about at times.

Tonight, Craig Groeschel from Lifechurch.TV visited our church and presented a message about worry entitled "Choked Out". I learned that I have made worry my friend when it is actually my enemy.

His definition of worry is "worry is the sin of distrusting the promises and power of God."

The 3 steps to stop the strangle hold of worry.

1. I will do what God asks me to do.
2. I will give God what I cannot do.
3. No matter what happes I will trust God.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart aand lean not on your own understanding ; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

I have already started practicing these 3 steps and have found a change in my outlook.

God is good..

Day 4 with the boys

Today was another good day with the boys. We had a little different routine because I was a guest speaker at Shelley's class so that meant they spent about 3 hours in one of those hourly daycare. They love it so they had a good time.

It has been fun to be with them and just observe them all day.

One thing that happens in our house quite often is I have customers coming over a lot picking up guns. This has come quite routine for everybody so today it became part of the boys play. I didn't know what they were doing when Seth shut Chase in the pantry. Chase then knocked on the door and Seth declared, "we have a customer." He then opened the door and Chase entered and said "I've come to pick up a gun." So, I pretended to give him a gun a fill out all the appropriate paperwork, which he had to sign of course. It was great fun...

Day 3 with the boys

Today was Day 3 with the boys. It was pretty uneventful and nobody ran away from home.

I am finding that working from home is going to take some getting used to. I am finding that I don't feel as productive and am easily distracted. Also, it is hard to shut it down. I find myself going back even more than usual to check my email, IMs, tweets, etc. And, when it is all said and done, I think of more things I could have done.

It also doesn't help that I am playing referee, waiter, nurse, chef and tv operator to two little boys.

Running Away

Today at lunch I commented how Chase had done a good job at eating his lunch. For some reason this really upset Seth and he got very angry. He started stomping around, he turned his back to me and then he went to his room and slammed the door.

He then returned to declare "I am running away from home for real."

"Tomorrow I am leaving and I'm not going to see my family anymore."

Chase replied with, "I'm going to spank his butt."

He then went to to his room. A little while later I went to check on him and heard him sobbing and between sobs he said to himself, "if I leave I am going to miss mommy."

He then later came out and declared he wasn't going to run away. What a relief, I was so worried.

Day 1 of "Home with the Boys"

Yesterday was Day 1 of me being "Home with the boys" and it went very well. We had breakfast, picked up toys, took baths, ran errands, ate lunch, took naps, went to piano lessons and then came home and made dinner.

We had only a few skirmishes and only 1 instance of someone getting sent to their room. Great success!

But, I did find it hard to get into a work rhythm and once I am trying to do this full time I will have to figure that out.

Home with the boys

Back in this post I wrote that I had quit my job and was going to pursue my own business. Well, that is still the plan but as of right now, I haven't been able to leave my other job. But, because of other commitments, I am staying home all week with the boys. This should be great opportunity for me to start getting used to working out of the house and share the space with 2 little boys and Shelley.

Shelley won't be around this week so it will just be the 3 boys so this should be really interesting. I'm not sure how it will work but I bet we are going to have a great time. I just pray we don't kill each other.

Oklahoma

We just got back from spending the weekend in Oklahoma at Shelley's mom's. I've probably mentioned before but Shelley comes from a big family and they had a get together this weekend.

There are a lot of reasons we go up there but here are two of them.

Family

They are a bunch of wonderful people and they have made me feel like a member from day one. They also will all do anything for each other. Now, don't get me wrong, they aren't perfect but they do care for one another and this goes through all the generations. When we are up there, hours can go by without us knowing where our children are but we do know that they are in good hands. We might not know whose hands have them at that moment but we know someone is looking out for them. Also, those hands might just be as young as 10 years old but they have all learned from a young age to look out for the little ones.

And, when we locked our keys in our car this morning, it was just minutes before an Uncle and the husband of a cousin were on site and within minutes had our door unlocked for us.

When you are there you can't help notice the warmth and love that runs through the house.

Food

Then there is the food. I won't go into much detail but it is really incredible. Last night my favorites were the fried okra and the home made ice cream. There were plenty of others but you just can't beat those two.

Olympics

The Olympics are starting tonight and I am wondering if I am the only one who doesn't have a lot of interest. There was a time when I would be all geared up to watch some track and field, swimming, diving, boxing and yes, even some gymnastics. But right now I am not even interested.

I wonder if it is sports overload at this point. The Cowboys play their first preseason game this weekend, the Rangers are in the wild card race and the PGA championship is this weekend. Maybe. I wonder if it is because it is in China and just seems to be another world away? Maybe.

I love the Olympics and I hope my interest increases.

Short Timers Disease

What I have been doing with my time at work.

(They are not glued or stuck together. They are actually balanced)

Dinner and a Movie

When Shelley and I went on our first date I defaulted to the standard "dinner and a movie." I took her to Pappadeaux's and to see this movie. Little did I know that she doesn't like seafood and hates going to movies. (It's a miracle I got a second date.)

In fact, in the 11 years we have been together I could probably count on one hand the number of movies we have gone together. I could also probably count on the other hand the number of movies that I have rented that she has sat through as well.

So, imagine my surprise a couple of weeks ago when I turned on Batman Begins and she sat through and watched all of it with great interest. I was even more surprised when a week later I suggested going to see The Dark Knight and she actually said yes.

Then last night I come home to find this movie on our DVR and once again she watched it with great interest.

Why all this sudden interest in movies I asked myself.

Well, I started to notice a pattern. What do all of these movies have in common? Yes, they all star Christian Bale and I am quiet certain, given the opportunity she would leave me for him in a heart beat. But, I'm comfortable with that.